God as an Enigma

     What caused this fragmentation of separation you might ask. It was obviously the Higher Enigma or our inter-reaction with other sons of God's skandhas (character traits we are inspired by). But to leave God's graces would indicate a need to prove ourselves of something we could do, either by our own volition or encouragement from others. There is a bit of anger toward God as we feel that we are not good enough as to want to enrich ourselves. It's like the relationship we have with ourselves. We feel we are not good enough, so we enrich ourselves with education, money, love, and family. All of which is called externalizations. A true man or woman of God is self-sufficient, as God is. So we are coming to understand the real reason for our separation from God – the need to externalize and become. People are doing that on a grand scale in our world. Why do you think people want to be actors and actresses, or singers, or to say a Star? It is to externalize their inner being in various roles and to become someone of recognition in their own country or the world. These people may entertain us, but they are working out their illusive self of externalization on a grand scale. In the beauty of the Tao, looking for popularity and fame is working against the laws of nature. I'm glad that Audrey Hepburn (1929 – 1993) left the glamour scene in 1968 to become a humanitarian and to work for UNICEF. Elizabeth Taylor became a heroine for the cause of HIV AIDS until her health no longer permitted her to continue. Both of these actresses were able to see beyond their Egos and self-grandeur to help others in need when their careers had peaked.

     So we are starting to see a pattern here. In one's youth, one needs to work out all of one's grandeur with its externalizations and being a someone in this world. However, if at a certain age you don't leave that behind, you might consider yourself to be wasting your time here upon this very earth. Of what value or to say of what content can you bring with you to your afterlife? A life of self-indulgence gives no theater to God. If after many incarnations of living so, you might lodge yourself in a very low astral plane of Kama-loka. There, if you should find yourself, incarnation is very difficult due to inner imbalances. This place is what the Judeo/christians call Hell. A more modest way of life should be sought after: a life of altruism and kindness; a life of introspection and service. Don't go on indulgent vacations but to spiritual retreats to find yourselves. If you happen to have a large family and a spouse, be the very best to them and give them a proper living environment with a drug- and alcohol-free environment and no domestic violence, both physical or sexual. If we are to be anything in this world, let us not forget where we came from and who we truly are – we are of God. Of whatever species of life with God you may be, recall your dignity and act accordingly. You can still be someone in this world, but do work along with the Holy Spirit and be a tool for transformation to others – be their savior in the most unique way you can express yourselves in.

     What are the conditions of this fragmentation? As we first left God to enter into these realms, we made manifest our buddhic bodies in which all of our reasons for departing are stored and our intentions for these realms. We felt lost at first and needed to be guided by cosmic ideology. That would indicate having a mind, so our higher mind was created to receive its guidance. Upon physical incarnation, we needed to discern in a world of duality the real from the unreal so our Lower Mind was developed out of our Higher Minds. We acquired attractions and misunderstandings so we created our Kama-rupa body which is the body of desire. For physical incarnation the Elohim helped us in creating our physical bodies. Who is to say who helped us create our other bodies? We most certainly had help. Our pranic body was always used to vitalize our being in these realms to form a connection to the divine. Having chosen physical bodies in a world of time and location gives us a lot of privacy and independence. We intended that in the beginning.

     You might ask, If we are loving sons of God, why can't we all love each other? The answer is fear. If we can't trust ourselves, how can we trust others? Thus the second vice is guilt. There can only be one source of guilt and that is the Lower Enigma or to say Mortal Mind (Mary Baker Eddy). Accept that we are subjected to this evil consciousness that works its way to our Lower Minds and Egos to our physical brain and subconscious to our nervous system. Then you need to remember that we came here for our independence and privacy. We can't blame others if we feel isolated at times. Also, in God's abode, there are various life forms who rarely meet each other due to differences in nature. They are very loving, but hard to relate to as here with strangers. We walk down the street not even saying hello to most people we meet and some people just want to be mean to each other as an alter ego personification. This is the definition of madness. The reunification of the sons of God under these conditions is an enigma in itself, one of the lower nature. As such, one must learn to overlook it in oneself and in others. Try to trust yourselves and others' love. There is nothing to be afraid of. God isn't angry with you. You might feel your own anger toward him in return. God is compassionate enough to understand and see you as perfect and at one with him, so rejoice.

     In the Hindu religious system, people greet each other in prayer as if they are meeting God itself. This should be our attitude. We are meeting God in every encounter we make. The reason why we can't do so is because we are afraid of God in the first place. If they can do so in India as a nation, we can be educated as a world in thinking along those lines. This is an Enigma like the other two. But this one is associated with the Lower Enigma. What is unanswerable about this is why we value it in the first place to love. It would take a lot of self-acceptance and God's acceptance to rise above this. Remembering that we are sons of God is the start. You can start that by doing your Dissociative Meditation as I taught you earlier. You can speak God's love by speaking from the NOW. Automatic writing can guide you as well. Try to find your loving nature in your deepest dreams and get away sometimes to find yourselves anew. Being by well-rested, loving people will remind you of your true nature as a son of God. Vacations are fine – spiritual retreats are even better. A mixture of the two is ideal!

     What kind of happiness can we find under these conditions of fragmentation and separation from God? Temporal and superficial happiness can only be found here. This is the realm that is just one step up from the deepest in matter. We are to use our intellect here, not magic or psychism. We are to understand that we need to find our happiness using our minds in our realm. Education is paramount. First you learn secondary knowledge, then you progress to primary knowledge of yourselves. Our happiness is of our own making here. We are constantly projecting our mind outward, which reflects our inner relationship with God. If we feel that God is love, we will receive love from others. If we feel abandoned by God, we will feel abandoned by others. Each vice we feel toward God we reflect in our relationships with others. So the happiness we feel is subject to our inner relationship we feel with God that we project outward. What the fragmentation does is that it gives each other their own projections. We, in turn, are inducted into the projection of the masses and groups and individuals. This makes it like a puppet on the string of others. If we dissociate, we are left alone with our thoughts. That is why to seek the spiritual path you need solitude first.

     The best thing to do to find happiness here is to rely on yourselves, and not get overly involved with others or be subject to society or the world. Other influences will put you in a tailspin. There are many married couples who have separate lives and they are happy. Actually, that is the key to a good marriage. It's unfortunate that this realm can confuse you so much with its projections upon you. Most people learn what happiness is about by watching the television, books, magazines, or movies. They are twice removed from reality. The best happiness you can find under these conditions is through personal independent achievement. It can be in the arts or sciences or anything of value you care to pmanifest . In an earlier chapter I mentioned the importance of manifesting and manifesting God. You are the only one you can rely upon. You will meet others to help you to manifest your dreams though, and then you will meet those who are apathetic. Your true karmic connections will make themselves known to you in time. It's a matter of finding them – those things do take time.

     I'm not saying to avoid personal relationships. You can find the highest joy in them. If you were to seek association, may it be someone who is on the same spiritual path as you are with the same values and mode of conduct, and the same goals in mind – to transform. This is a positive and uplifting association which mirrors your inner being perfectly. In the book A Course in Miracles, these relationships are termed Holy Encounters. With the help of the Holy Spirit, we can turn our bad relationships into Holy Encounters. A Course in Miracles intellectualizes the Lower Enigma/Mortal Mind to the point of educating your lower mind but doesn't take you to the point of true dynamics of releasing your subconscious holding to fear and guilt. No literature can help you in that goal; it's a lifelong meditation that may take many lifetimes to accomplish. Books are secondary knowledge; write your own primary journal of your soul and use that as your bible. I have read many spiritual books. They can only take you to the threshold; you are going to have to take the leap of faith alone from there. Books are just books, and an encounter with God is an ontology of realistic experiences in self-discoveries. Such ontological studies of yourselves and God are reciprocal. Understanding God is understanding yourselves. Codependent relationships and overworking will misdirect you away from your self-discoveries.